|*20th June' 06*|

Can I just leave? Why am I still here? Why keep me when I'm just a Nobody in everyone's life? A black sheep whom people see when I'm around.

What have I done to deserve all this happenings that had been thrown towards me? Am I so Not Deserving? Why do I do things which I know should be avoided. (even right now.)

Is my life being bad mouth? Why am I so disliked and hated? Why do I feel this way when I thought everything is Ok? Why are things taken away from me just like that when I thought everything was going so well and acceptable? Why do I feel like this all over again? Why am I going through all this all over again? Why do I feel So Lost and Depress again?

Will I find Happiness that I deserve? Can I find it? When I find it, will this happen? Will it last forever till I walk on?

Why Do I Hurt them so carelessly?
Why do I drop things or lose them so carelessly?
Why? WHy?? WHY???

Is directly showing my dislike to some1 so dear so cruel?
Is hurting some1 so dear by pointing out my dislike a sin?

Am I being shaken by this 'bad thing' because I'm not as strong in my faith as usual or because I'm feeling and thinking this way?

Why do I feel so lonely, empty, lost?
Will I ever understand?

Why can others live without all this hindering them all the time?
Why Can't I have the same thing too?

What is He trying to tell me?
Am I that different?